Poured out like a drink offering

What we can afford?
So, frustrating moment yesterday. i have 'afforded' myself some time, occationally this last few weeks, to walk down a bit of a spiritual adventure, an internal journey with external tangents, but it can't be done half hearted. On friday, I was reminded, by events,etc. that I can't afford that time. That makes me angry.

I hear of a a pair of friends, a couple who plan on taking a year off of any ministry for the first year of their marriage. Lol, bless their hearts (and bonus for telling me who usually says that and what she means by that)

I hope to get back on this journey, and not become bitter about not being able to. An easier option would be that I never journeyed there at all, but that is no longer an option. Neither is affording the time in this season of life to go there, though, as this weeks events reminded me. Maybe summer? Just found out I am eligible for sebaticle in 15 months, but probably can't take it for 26 months, bless my heart. Maybe then.

But I don't like to focus on the time I don't have. Rather I should try to focus what I do have, even more, I guess.

On a brighter note, this post seems to be very well proof-read other than one word I am not sure how to spell.

Have a good weekend!