Monday, June 09, 2008

Starting to unwind...

I am thankful for this chance to have a Sabbatical. I have actually been looking around overwelmed and amazed at what God does/may/will have for me as I slow down and focus on Him, but tonight I have decided to stop being overwelmed and just start.

Should I start with 'hello', or 'how are you', or 'how can I serve you?' Should I start in His Word, or on my knees, in songs of praise or in silence and awe?

I don't write this to demonstrate my inability to just start being with God. This page, now little read, I am sure, has always been a place of honesty, and that desire for me to grow deeper, sit with him, has been hindered by an overwelmed feeling of what it is like to think about Him, and what He has done in my life, and what He has given to me and doing in me.

Not sure how, but it is time to start, what ever that means. Pray for me. I am likely praying for you, (though I may not know more than the 2 I suspect still read this thing).

God has given me access to a great gift, and my fear of wasting it has stopped me from taking full advantage of it. Not any more.

Good night.

3 comments:

enji said...

ya. i've been there before. when you settle down to talk to him and you have no idea what to say.
whenever i get there, "i love you" is usually a conversation starter.
i'll be praying for you.

LJE said...

I pray this time will be one of connecting and refreshment, both with God and with your family...

Candace said...

I think that as you get accustomed to letting your mind slow down and concentrate more on your own walk with God, you'll begin to get that 'connection' back that you long to have.